Tuesday, April 8, 2008

nothing else matters

yesterday after a brief painful encounter...i decided to listen to music....jus to cool it off...to relax...as i started to browse my music...i saw this song that i did not listen to after a very long time....so i double clicked it...and started to listen to it...after listening for a while...i start to get addicted to it..the song is really good...everything was done well...of course..its a heavy metal band...metallica...the song name is nothing else matters..the song goes like this:
So close no matter how far
Couldnt be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters
Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I dont just say
And nothing else matters
Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know
So close no matter how far
Couldnt be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know
Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I dont just say
And nothing else matters
Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters
Never cared for what they say
Never cared for games they play
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
And I know
So close no matter how far
Couldnt be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No nothing else matters
after listening to the song a few times..it makes me think of life....i really started to think back.until last year....have there been any happiness??am i living a good life??after thinking thoroughly...damn it man..i am living a piece of shit life..life nowdays is really screwed..where is the happiness??isn't life suppose to have happiness and sadness??how come i am experiencing sadness more than happiness???for the past year...i have never been really happy..jus a bit and den gone...jus like a little fire being put out by a big damn pail of icy cold water...gone in a snap replaced by sadness..huge ones....freakin dragging me down man...den wat the hell is life for??to come into this world to suffer???where is the love??damn....love cant be felt...i don feel any love...if my parents love me...why would they have shitloads of probs between them??causing my sis to depress??if there is love....y cant i feel it???is there really love in this world.....if there is...point it to me...in the direction where i can see...cos i dun see it anymore....sooner or later...the word love would be erased from my life...better go down than up....stay low..later go up...drop down my ass hurt...sucks like shit....freaking pain....
damn man..i FREAKIN WANNA BE HAPPY!!!cant i taste it for a little bit??cant i embrace it...enjoy it and give it back later???AM I TO SUFFER FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE?????IF THAT IS THE CASE, LET ME FREAKIN SUFFER!!!!!!!!FOR NOTHING ELSE MATTERS!!!!!!

2 comments:

Dappy said...

Hi,

In our weaknesses we see God, and in our sufferings, nevermind the fact that some may have them more than others. But still, let nothing frighten you, because all will pass. God alone is unchanging, and He will sustain us. =)


p/s: Sorry I kepo a bit, I saw your msn.

samenduck|samenmouse said...

be happy^^