disappointed

well there is nothing much to say actually...i am disappointed..yea..i am..i dun wanna mend it..it shall be wit me till it fade away itself...besides tat..to me.it never existed or its dead..i dun give a shit and piss on it!!ass-wipe!

msn list lost!!

people..this is an emergency!!i lost all my contact in msn..currently there is no one in my contact...so is my list in my hotmail.

if u have read this..pls add me again on msn.my email for this is doredore_blue@hotmail.com.thanks

ps.pls spread the word.thanks

Frustration 2

yea i am back wit the second frustration..the first one is still there somewhere in my frenster i think.

well its time to cut the crap. wats wrong??i mean wat the hell is wrong??damn man..i tried and tried and tried and tried..and i dun get it..wats wrong wit me??damn i know i am not perfect..aint got no skills...but wats the point?cant it be enough?why is so much expected out of me??i cant do it means i cant??dun u guys understand?

if i am perfect..am i right beside god rite now..maybe wit the others under gab or micheal now...the problem is i aint??damn man..get that thing in ur head cos i aint standin it now...i am sick and tired of it...and i give up....PUIK!!!!

stupidity

everyday i look at the mirror..i see myself..same face same body...different hair...i always say to myself..theodore..u are a F***king idiot..look at you..u are too soft la...how many times already have i been soft??all the time..damn it..i am so soft and nice until i am stepped on..i finally realised tat i am really a F***king idiot..

i have decided...not to be soft anymore..bein soft does not lead me to anywhere..onli goin down the drain as a person..i valued u..i got cast aside...i teach u something nicely u say i fucking order u...you You YOU!!!i will really keep this in my heart...i will remember tat an asshole such as u...i am f***kin disappointed to have u as a fren...a hypocryte...

see i am F***kin stupid...i have been soft and nice and this is wat i get...stepped on...and cast aside...i shall change....i will not be soft anymore...so tat i won be F***kin stepped on anymore..

thank god for her?

well i have thought of a title to put on..but i dunno wat to put..so i decided that it shall be untitled.well...today i slept the whole day..super nice..had a really good sleep..well.woke up bout 3pm..but decided to sleep again until 3++..so it was good...

well.i woke up and decided to continue on wit my manga....well manga is a comic..japanese comic...i really like reading those..its really interesting..keeps time goin fast..and by the time u look at the time..its time to go...hehe...well...i do enjoy my time reading till dinner..

i went to orang for dinner...ate like a pig cos i am a pig...den went to practice in church..well...i think it went well...had a good time...the practice is the last one...for this coming camp.well..it was fun..

the thing is jov saw tat i din look happy...deng...she is really a superwoman wit super ray vision..hehe..she told me and scare the heck out of me..i was suprised...she even saw since yesterday...hmm..scary...

anyways thank god for this kinda ppl..super kind and good..she helped me alot..and i thank god for her as a fren...and her laughter..omg..is loud..and let me tell u this..u sad listen to her laughter...her laughter is contagious..will make u laugh and laugh...hmm..thank god for her:)

updated: things that happened for the past month of july.

well..finally i have the urge to update my blog..well since i haven been updating properly for the past one month...i decided that today i shall write a nice long one wit things that happened in the past one month.well..in july basically i was working my ass off...seriously..makin sure that everyday was a good day for me...hehe..my day in the office basically was busy..

this is the schedule of my working hours
8am-reach office.do office work.
9am-go for breakfast wit colleague
10am-go back to office to continue work
11am-start counting down for lunch hr
12-2pm-lunch hr and rest
2-5pm-continue my work if there is any.but usually i start countdown again.

basically tats my working days..super busy..

secondly wat happend was i decided to ask my mom to have steamboat at home.so this is wat happened.
yea..this is wat happened..well there was basically a lot of food..everything..basically u will get full..i did not get full..but extremely full until cannot walk.hehe..but it was super satisfying after eating all that good stuff.










well..another thing that happened is when i got back..i got a shock when i got back...well i already have a birthday present from my mom...but the second present shocked me though..i am so touch by the present and i tak sampai hati use it lo..but in the end rick came and made me use it..here is the picture.














yea that is.i had a ipod and a bass string for my bday present...i wan extremely shock when i saw the bass string on the table with bday wishes.well although i used the string already..but the package is still kept..hehe..well the ipod was a present by my mom.although she came out onli half la.but its still present...and i thank her for her love lo..which showed tat she is willing to sacrifice alot for me.thanks mom!besides this..wanna thanks those who shared cash money to buy this bass strings for me..i am really touch and i appreciate it.who bought this string pls leave ur comment so tat i can remember u all..thanks..

labuan and its ppl

well..for the past one month i have been in labuan..tomolo will be the 22nd of july and it will be the day i return to kl..well wat have i done in labuan??nothing much i guess..jus work and play....i return to the church frens i had in labuan...they all did not changed..they remain the same..as happy as always..laughin and showin true joy in their eyes..that is something u cannot see often.

hmm....well..its good tat i shall take this oppportunity to thank them lo..jack,donald,sophia,sheryl,delany,ivy,nelly,fei fun ,chris, and also not forgetting donald's mom..hehe..well they each drew on my face..on my bady....while drawing they said a blessing to bless me..welll...its a long time since someone blessed me...i am so touch to have so much blessing...hehe..it has been a wonderful time for me in labuan..lepakin and laughin all the way..jus relaxation heals the soul...

well as long labuan remains in my heart..forever it will be my hometown....