let go

well time has spoken..i am to let go. thanks for the answer. wat can i say??hai...wanna cry also cannot cry la.tak ada hati cry also...wanna be pissed also cannot be pissed....so jus be myself and pick my damn ass up and walk on life all over again..this time i shall do it alone...

......................thanks for the answer......................the truth hurts...........but wat can i do...........i am not in the position to say anything......................

good bye and welcome singleness again:::::::::::::::::::::::::::>>>>>>>>i am single and no more available....no more means no more gonna be alone for the rest of my life.

cheers and thanks for the support that was given by the sorrunding people...

depressed or sad?

well..i have been moody all these two days...since yesterday and today.i smiled..fake smiles i did.i cant concentrate on the things i do today.even counting invitation cards took me 2 hrs.i recounted for at least 8 times.

dad was surprised.mom shocked.i din talk much.jus kept quiet.instead i do more when i am quiet.din feel like talking to my colleagues today.so i kept quiet and stayed in my mom's office.

i have this heavy heart now.i feel heavy while walking.dun feel like eating at all or eating too much.hai....is this depressed or sad???

risk

it hurts..but i shall risk it...
sakit sakit la..biarkan....
i dun care bout it...i shall strive for it...

body of an old man

i am officially an old man. i would admit that.my body hurts all over. i am physically tired.wat happen?well i shall share it out

sunday 7th dec 5-6.30pm: non stop of badminton
sunday 7th dec 8-10pm:futsal

monday 8th: gotong royong in cohs.

my right body feels like a vegetable now..i cant really handle them out. it really hurts.each of the parts of the body....even the joints hurts.now my back hurts too..i feel like a helpless old man who cant move about easily. even my frens laugh at me. finish la me.

i had a great day today. worked my ass off..maybe it would help me lose weight. i am really fat already. dengs..need to kurangkan the fats...hehe..tiring lo today..hee.i shall rest.now tired d...gg already..


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untitled

i cant seemed to find a titile for this post.
maybe i shall jus call it untitiled.
well..
i am in labuan.
i feel i dun belong
its the 5th day i am back
i feel nothing
not like my real home
still hoping tat i shall settle down
here its different
nothing to do
work also nothing to do
relax like mad
the town have not change
onli the people have changed.

i jus miss kl..
really miss fcc and everyone there
i hope tat time will pass soon
which is impossible.
anyways. its still 1 month 30 days.
i shall see her.
till then i shall call her
sms her.

thats all:)

I Miss HER:)

third day

today is my third day in labuan..hehe..i am working currently. kinda free today.doin nothing much.jus warming the bench of the office.well i am counting time now and its good actually tat i start to do something which is worth while..hehe...well its boring me in the office.but i dun mind. i need the cash and i am willing to work for it.hehe

there are three things i need to blog bout today:

1. I am sorry!! for calling u late. i din know u would go to the exam hall so early. really really sorry. i will call u earlier tomolo so tat i would not miss the time before u go to exam :) anyways all the best in the exam...i would hope tat u will do the best there in the exam:)

2. thank god tat we settled our problems..i am glad that nothing much is happening now. which i think would be better for us:) after u finish ur exam...i think we can take more time to know each other..hehe..it would be better for us lo..i really hope tat i can be wit u soon:)

3. i cant wait till 4th feb..dang...time pass like so so so so slow like tat...its like the day will never come like tat.i wanna gila already waiting for it:)

hai....wat to do..i gotta wait..hehe..back here in labuan..there is nothing much to do besides lepaking...its the best place to lepak:)....

i shall wait ur reply:) all the best and i miss u:)

my first day

today is my first day in labuan. i din sleep last nite.packed and den went to airport.
we missed the turning to lcct!tim was tired. kesian him.hehe.but anyways we got to the place 20 min later den i wanted to arrive.bt i din care. as long sampai can d. we ate mcd breakfast. i enjoyed it very much.hehe..we chatted and all tat..lepak..

den i went to check in. got everything settled asap.hehe..as soon i was walking out of the checkin in one place. SHE called!!yes!i was so happy tat she woke up jus to say goodbye:)happy kao lo.at least i can leave kl in peace.hehe..

i slept in the plane the whole time.until neck pain,i got back to labuan..den my mom's first reaction was. u are fat.haha..i admit..cos for the past 1 week i was eating like a hungry man. non stop eating.

i din do much in labuan today.

1.went to pasar
2. eat pan mee (SUCKS!!)
3.repack my room
4.play with optimus prime (no more transforming into a truck.or else i will break something)
5.call HER
6.Miss HER
7.Make MISS MEDICINE for her
8.sleep
9.overslept.
10. dinner
11.blog
12.sleep?

well..i gonnna work tomolo..have to cos there is the need of money.hehe.well i gtg lo.sleep first.hehe.have to do no.12. so go strength to work

i miss u all..fcc ppl, cs ppl, everyone....jus be perasan pls:)

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